So I will now start work on June 13, instead of May 23. I think I let myself bend over to my parents. Sigh, at least my supervisor was understanding.

I won't bend over for them this time though, they can't use the NCLEX as an excuse anymore.

If I sign a lease this month, they will give me 3 months free rent, which means I don't have to pay a dime until August.

This is huge for me as I've been stressing out about having to pay rent + deposits + move in-fees, and still be able to live until my first paycheck. So, if everything goes as planned I can use my savings for food and gas. Thank the lord.

Now the main problem is my parents, they don't want me moving out. They need someone to take care of my mentally ill little brother, even though they are plenty able to do so themselves (they're both RNs who make tons of money), and they are able to find babysitters if needed. Of course they haven't yet, because I am still here. Granted, I've wasted my life taking care of my little brother, and honestly I am tired. He isn't my responsibility. He's theirs. But they don't want to actually take responsibility for him. And I am honestly worried. Left a bunch of phone numbers of potential resources they could try.

See, that's a big issue, but that's not the real issue here. They don't want to me to leave, because I'd be doing them a disservice. It would be a personal affront to them and others around their social circle (my mother friends' still have their kids living at home even though they're done with school, and they're socially retarded because of that), like I left because I had big disagreement with them. That's what's actually happening, because they don't want me leaving in the first place. I am leaving because I have job there. It's only 40 minutes away from home.

They really just want me at home because it's more convenient for them, I do their housework and their laundry, I cook for them, I buy groceries for them. They are losing a convenient maid, which is sad because I am their daughter.

You know in spite of all that, I really care for my parents and my little brother, my mom at least, dad can fuck off. And I want to do all I can for them. But...enough is enough man.

Sure, I left an hour and a half late, and it was actually a shitty and stressful day. But who gives a shit really?

It doesn't matter what she was before and after the WWF. Frankly, I don't give a shit.




She put women's wrestling on the map, and was a great influence to so many worldwide. She was my childhood idol, man.

BTW, Zoey Barkow, the best thing about Nurse Jackie.










Literal cinnamon roll.

I just started Leadership, basically an extended clinical rotation where you work a full 12hr shift. It's not as bad as it sounds, but it does get exhausting. I usually end up showering, then eating, then sleeping right when I return home.

Like both of my preceptors so far. MICU precept is a huge cutie, she talks to herself a lot, calls everyone a "sweetheart", and always says that she's out of it even though she incredibly organized and put together. Neuro precept is a deadpan snarker type, she likes to pretend she rules the roost over at the unit. Though she did orient some of nurses I worked with. So I guess her queen bee attitude is somewhat warranted. She actually really nice and funny though. Pretty good with talking to patients, something I'd like to be better with.

I actually prefer to work with Neuro precept, because she forces me to do everything. Can't learn unless you do in Nursing.

In gaming news, I just finished Dark Souls. Cheesed Gwyn with parrying dagger and the Moonlight Greatsword (new favorite weapon) Killed all the bosses too! Made Kalameet my bitch with sorcery + Bellowing Dragoncrest Ring + Crown of dusk. Some might "that's cheap, you're not playing the game right!" Meanwhile Zweihander +15 + Power Within + Red Tearstone Ring will probably kill the fucker in <10 hits. Not cheap at all!
Since that's done however, hype for Dark Souls 3 is up tenfold, and I don't have a PS4 yet. :( Considering Demon's Souls or SofFS, but I kinda want 60fps, and I don't think you get that with either game on the PS3. :(

It looks nice.

Working on my last ever academic paper for a while. My Capstone. It should be simple, but it not because they are pretty vague about what they want on their paper. "Be specific, " they said. But have it done in less than 10 pages.

Other than that, I spent only $15 on Fatal Frame 1, 2, 3, the first Silent Hill, AND Street Fighter V. Amazon had a pricing error at $10.36 in the very early morning, and I woke up from a nightmare at 4:50. A far less shitty nightmare than the rest of them, I say. I got the rest of the games at the latest flash sale.

Good way to finish Spring Break, I say.

It's still rad.

The controls are definitely changed from the PS2 version, though. shooting was r1+x in the old version, while it's r1+square now. Just small changes are a little jarring now (especially coming off of The Evil Within), but I am got used to it. Just made it to the castle.

The game has amazing level design, it's something that I missed from The Evil Within, which only really has something to that caliber in Chapter 3. Granted I think that TEW makes up for it somewhat with it's more interesting arsenal (<3 agony crossbow), but RE4 still has melee + knife, so...

The only problem with RE4 is that it doesn't any specific way to kill downed enemies. I think you're suppose to use the down time to complete an objective or get out of there. The game gives you so much ammo that don't really need to do so, however.

Also no quick weapon switching. Those are just minor concerns though.

Whatever. Off to school.

I would post more, but each class am I taking wants me write them at least four papers. And do tons of group assignments, and study for exams, and go to clinical.

I don't even have the energy to play games. Is that sad?

So they forced us to attend this Recruiting Conference at my Nursing school, it lasted from 8-5. I don't really mind that much, because it was a great opportunity to put my foot in the door. I just wish it didn't last so long. And they didn't give us garbage Mazzio's pizza for lunch.

One recruiter bothered me, though. He just answered my questions with heavily rehearsed answers. Didn't really say much. He actually wrote down his work email to send my resume to. I felt bothered by that though. Like he just did that because he thought I was pretty or something.

I think I am just being a paranoid bitch that's on tumblr too much, and should just take the networking opportunity.